I also started just like how many
people started. At first, I chose to take drugs because of how it made me feel.
I used to think I could control how much I take and how often I used it but
however it changed how my brain works which led to some physical changes in me
and it finally made me loose self-control and took over my whole life. I used
to take these drugs just to feel good, ease stress, or avoid reality but now it
has changed my entire health habits. And now it has put me in health dangers,
financial difficulties, and other problems between me and my loved ones. Yes I
know it is dangerous using drugs, I know all the dangers involved in using it.
I don’t also feel comfortable using it for it has caused me more than enough
harm already.
The use of
these drugs have made me look inferior among my colleagues, family members and
other relatives, even some people I am better than always show me disrespect in
many ways. I certainly know my family doesn’t feel comfortable in public to
announce I am part of them and I also don’t feel comfortable with that because
I also need love and companionship from them but since I have subjected myself
to these drugs and they have now overtaken me, yes I know I am the cause of
their shying away from me. Sometimes when I look into my mother’s eyes I see
the pain in her heart but I usually find it difficult to make her happy because
I am not always happy myself. All that I always say is that she shouldn’t worry
everything is going to be alright for there are many others involved in it.